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It’s fucked up is what it is. Right now my coworkers like me, my manager gave me a glowing review, the company is willing to buy me certs and I have been assig

It’s fucked up is what it is. Right now my coworkers like me, my manager gave me a glowing review, the company is willing to buy me certs and I have been assigned to the subteam responsible for our core functionality. 8 months ago I was self-harming and ready to off myself because of endlessly firing applications into the void and reaching the end of my finances. I can clearly perform under the stress of work, school, achievement, things breaking but the way the labour market is structured almost broke me which has to tell you something.

ethbr0 5y ago
As parent was telling you, that's always been America. Except historically, most jobs have been less safe. You get crap jobs in your teens to have work history. You go to college to get a degree. You make friends at college, network, and maybe get an internship. You leverage all of the previous to get your first job. You leverage your first job and network to get your second job. It's not easy. But it is how the world works. Why do you think so many people in white collar jobs have imposter syndrome?
danans 5y ago
> 8 months ago I was self-harming and ready to off myself because of endlessly firing applications into the void and reaching the end of my finances I am sorry you experienced this. Many of us have experienced similar things in our careers. When I did, I had my brother's couch I could crash on while I figured things out, and to be honest, parents who could help me with rent when my post dotcom-bust job paid peanuts. To the extent that your difficulties were exacerbated by an insufficient social safety net is perhaps the greatest indictment of our society. Incentive structures matter, and structures that put people at the brink between achievement and self harm do a lot of damage to our human capital. Not everyone will be pushed to the point of self-harm, but the proximity between destitution and achievement is too close, especially for those without family and community safety nets.

ethbr0 5y ago

As parent was telling you, that's always been America. Except historically, most jobs have been less safe. You get crap jobs in your teens to have work history. You go to college to get a degree. You make friends at college, network, and maybe get an internship. You leverage all of the previous to get your first job. You leverage your first job and network to get your second job. It's not easy. But it is how the world works. Why do you think so many people in white collar jobs have imposter syndrome?

danans 5y ago

> 8 months ago I was self-harming and ready to off myself because of endlessly firing applications into the void and reaching the end of my finances I am sorry you experienced this. Many of us have experienced similar things in our careers. When I did, I had my brother's couch I could crash on while I figured things out, and to be honest, parents who could help me with rent when my post dotcom-bust job paid peanuts. To the extent that your difficulties were exacerbated by an insufficient social safety net is perhaps the greatest indictment of our society. Incentive structures matter, and structures that put people at the brink between achievement and self harm do a lot of damage to our human capital. Not everyone will be pushed to the point of self-harm, but the proximity between destitution and achievement is too close, especially for those without family and community safety nets.