Yes, the lack of a functional and sustained social circle, along with chronic suffering (not using the word 'depression' since I have not been officially diagno

Yes, the lack of a functional and sustained social circle, along with chronic suffering (not using the word 'depression' since I have not been officially diagnosed) has left me repeatedly checking reddit for that orange message button, and hackernews for a delta in karma or replies. This is a consequence of seeking novelty and new experiences, which is promoted by dopamine. I am well aware of it, I am conscious of it when it happens, and yet I feel that I have no control over my actions when I do that. I frequently cold turkey it, or nuke my accounts in an attempt to stop this, but to no avail. I have been addicted to other processes, I know that I can cut them by substituting with other, less unhealthy addictions, at the moment, I am trying to get myself addicted to math books. It seems to be working, I managed to get out of bed with ease. I am currently working through MacDonald's "Linear and Geometric Algebra", and Pinter's "A book of Abstract Algebra". The next books will probably be Mendelson's "Introduction to Topology", and MacDonald's "Linear and Geometric Calculus". By the time I wrote this reply, I have already glanced at my karma - on the upper right corner of my screen - four times, even though I am well aware that it is static and can not change until I reload the page.