I should say, "I wouldn't have felt free to do that in the situations I've been in". And maybe that's just a supposition that I was making. People pay me to p

I should say, "I wouldn't have felt free to do that in the situations I've been in". And maybe that's just a supposition that I was making. People pay me to play music-- it's not that I'm bad at it. But there are a lot of reasons ranging from not annoying other folks to not looking like I care more about playing scales than fixing a problem which make me think I should not do that kind of thing.