I’m really on the edge. I’ve smoked pretty regularly for the past 5 years. On the one hand, it helped me reduce anxiety and to be a more sociable person. I was

I’m really on the edge. I’ve smoked pretty regularly for the past 5 years. On the one hand, it helped me reduce anxiety and to be a more sociable person. I was on heavy medication for depression and anxiety, one essentially causing the other. It made me into a zombie. Marijuana allowed me to not only get out of bed, and do my job, but also leave the house and be a sociable person with others, and make strides to be more sociable in general. I’m off the medication now, and I’m finding marijuana is pulling me really down. I want to stop, but the feelings of euphoria and happiness that marijuana creates, is a really hard thing to quit. My wife on the other hand, is a high energy, ADHD software engineer. She uses it to calm her brain so she can sleep at night. I use it to stimulate my brain out of anxiety induced paralysis. I wish I could quit. It’s expensive. I got excited because my state is undergoing changes in their law and I thought hey we could grow. But I’m worried about that dependency, and I would really prefer to live without it. All that to say, I’m just not sure. It’s not as easy to swap one thing that gives you joy, with something else. I do think it is very dependency inducing, and addicting for heavy users.