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> I mean I couldn't travel to half the countries in the world because I couldn't imagine being somewhere, where I couldn't pick up. That's another level :) I

by herbst 5y ago

> I mean I couldn't travel to half the countries in the world because I couldn't imagine being somewhere, where I couldn't pick up. That's another level :) I travelled a lot and only smoke when the laws make it somewhat ok. It's just at home doing nothing where I have hard time seeing myself without. Congratulations on your success, sounds as if you realized what you don't like about your life and actually changed it. That's bigger than it may sounds! Kudos Edit:// btw no pun. Herbst is just German for fall. But it could be that my love for the herb influenced my name decision back then. But I like fall too

bpiche 5y ago
Vielen Dank, I really only shared that because I wondered if it would resonate with others here. Another BIG thing that made me stop, at least for the foreseeable future: I was having spasms in my neck, basically on my carotid artery, every time I used. I felt like I was about to have a stroke half the time, and I also felt a little powerless to stop it. I am really happy that you are in control of your usage. It's a scary place to be when you can't control your own life.
- herbst 5y ago
  I am sure it resonates with people here, this thread gathered more interest than I assumed. That spasm sounds horrifying. Glad you stopped, sounds like your body really wanted you to. Also i would not say I have good control, I am maybe just lucky of having a not very addictive personality.
  - bpiche 5y ago
    The very fact that you made this post and are willing to be vulnerable enough with yourself to ask these questions is a awesome. Keep examining yourself. Nobody is perfect. Just know that people will love you and support you 100% of the way if you ever decide to stop using for a while, and it is way easier than you might think.. but you can't do it alone. You are a very smart person. I wonder how smart the parallel universe version of yourself who never tokes is. They're probably a real force of nature. At least, that's what I wonder about myself sometimes. Truly, a highdea.
    - herbst 5y ago
      I love your mental image of our parallel selfs. No worries I have all the support I could get whatever I go for! My partner is doing a break, so I thought I try too so I am sober for a few days now actually. Sure miss it, but mostly because I relax on the couch all day because the weather is really bad, otherwise it's not too hard (for me) Today I just wondered why and figured I'll get some inputs from a crowd i value.

by herbst 5y ago

bpiche 5y ago

Vielen Dank, I really only shared that because I wondered if it would resonate with others here. Another BIG thing that made me stop, at least for the foreseeable future: I was having spasms in my neck, basically on my carotid artery, every time I used. I felt like I was about to have a stroke half the time, and I also felt a little powerless to stop it. I am really happy that you are in control of your usage. It's a scary place to be when you can't control your own life.

herbst 5y ago
I am sure it resonates with people here, this thread gathered more interest than I assumed. That spasm sounds horrifying. Glad you stopped, sounds like your body really wanted you to. Also i would not say I have good control, I am maybe just lucky of having a not very addictive personality.
- bpiche 5y ago
  The very fact that you made this post and are willing to be vulnerable enough with yourself to ask these questions is a awesome. Keep examining yourself. Nobody is perfect. Just know that people will love you and support you 100% of the way if you ever decide to stop using for a while, and it is way easier than you might think.. but you can't do it alone. You are a very smart person. I wonder how smart the parallel universe version of yourself who never tokes is. They're probably a real force of nature. At least, that's what I wonder about myself sometimes. Truly, a highdea.
  - herbst 5y ago
    I love your mental image of our parallel selfs. No worries I have all the support I could get whatever I go for! My partner is doing a break, so I thought I try too so I am sober for a few days now actually. Sure miss it, but mostly because I relax on the couch all day because the weather is really bad, otherwise it's not too hard (for me) Today I just wondered why and figured I'll get some inputs from a crowd i value.