I've been pondering the word "deserve". I translate it as "something the speaker expects and wants" but it pretends to be a reason. I wonder if it reveals which

I've been pondering the word "deserve". I translate it as "something the speaker expects and wants" but it pretends to be a reason. I wonder if it reveals which opinions the speaker has which they haven't yet bothered to find reasons for. I've removed it from my vocabulary hoping to do a better job asking myself "why do I expect that?" and "why would that be good?"