I'm knee deep into complex modular synthesis patches these days, but started like you a few years ago. I would say: ignore the software stuff and treat yoursel

I'm knee deep into complex modular synthesis patches these days, but started like you a few years ago. I would say: ignore the software stuff and treat yourself to a great analog hardware synth. You will learn a lot more, have a real instrument to play with, listen to its amazing sounds -- and if you don't like it, you will be able to resell it with a tiny loss. In order to learn things, I would recommend a semi-modular synth like the Moog Grandmother. It's great for learning all the basics and sounds absolutely phenomenal.