> Allow yourself to be unproductive / inefficient in your free time and to enjoy it. Take some time for yourself. Other than potential physical issues with my

> Allow yourself to be unproductive / inefficient in your free time and to enjoy it. Take some time for yourself. Other than potential physical issues with my body and mind, this is probably my biggest issue. Somehow I've never learned how to relax and how not to min/max everything for productivity. As a child/early teen, I used to despise sleep because it was a "waste of time" and I wasn't being "productive". Now I constantly feel bad if I'm performing at 100%, which results in me feeling terrible after a week of work where I didn't accomplish 90% of what I wanted, but I still blew my management away with what I did (not always, but often). I think I'm still working through the unstructured period of just stopping work, but I'm hoping that once I start to really settle into this free time, I will learn how to slow down and actually relax. Sit down, read a book, and don't worry about how quickly I'm reading, what projects I should be working, what I have to do later in the day. For the rest of your comment, I do think I genuinely enjoy my current position and its goals. It's not something with high morals, but it's valuable, OSS (very important to me), and I can have a huge impact in how people interact with computers (kind of my main focus with my work). I have poor relationships with my parents, but I don't communicate with them often, so it's not really a big deal.