I've been increasingly under the impression that there must be lots of us in this sort of situation (in my friend circle it's 50%). It's definitely not suppose

I've been increasingly under the impression that there must be lots of us in this sort of situation (in my friend circle it's 50%). It's definitely not supposed to be like this, but can't really grasp why. It might have something to do with a lack of overarching common purpose/leadership. Some react to this by becoming religious, embracing the inborn affinity for magical beliefs ("follow God's voice"), but it would be ironic if I tried it. In the end it seemingly comes down to every man for himself. Good luck.