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With that quantity of calories I assume bodybuilding? What was your prior ideal of perfection that you were chasing and for what purpose? (Personal satisfaction
by angrais 5y ago
With that quantity of calories I assume bodybuilding? What was your prior ideal of perfection that you were chasing and for what purpose? (Personal satisfaction, competition, etc)
- bigwavedave 5y agoYep, you hit the nail on the head. In All-Star Superman, Lex Luthor was described as "not the smartest man in the room, but the smartest man in every room." Originally, that's how I wanted to be described, but s/smart/larg/. That evolved into the need to compete, and after finally taking first in a tested competition and finding it didn't bring me the fulfillment I'd been craving, I realized that external validation wouldn't help me see my body in a positive light and turned instead towards the goal of personal satisfaction. That might be the right lesson from after-school specials, but trying to self-validate through a mental lens that filters out all "positive" progress and highlights the shortcomings can't bring a person any real personal satisfaction- I needed to get help as well, and (fortunately) eventually I did.