And your goal is to pretend you're making a huge difference that will probably not get noticed by anyone, and even if it does, it will be for a very short perio

And your goal is to pretend you're making a huge difference that will probably not get noticed by anyone, and even if it does, it will be for a very short period of time and after a while everyone will die and forget about it, and then the Earth will die of heat death or something, and everything you made with your "YEAAAH!" enthusiasm and pain will be destroyed anyway. Have fun with that perspective ;-)