I was literally just going to comment this. If you're having suicidal thoughts, you need to see someone or do telehealth. There are providers who you can contac

I was literally just going to comment this. If you're having suicidal thoughts, you need to see someone or do telehealth. There are providers who you can contact remotely. There is no reason to feel ashamed about contacting a therapist/psychiatrist. They really do help. I can speak from experience. If you have medical insurance, look at their website for a provider. If you don't, take a look here: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-yourself/ https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/help-yourself/