What you're experiencing is normal. The good thing about getting older is that you often relax into this stuff a lot more, when it's not so new anymore. Life is

What you're experiencing is normal. The good thing about getting older is that you often relax into this stuff a lot more, when it's not so new anymore. Life is long, not always fun, and very rarely clear. Seek out and be around people older than you, even if it's in silence. Oh yeah, and try to study up on meditation- figure out what it really means to you, then do that.