> a complete failure in life Best of luck and hang on! So many times I've felt like "a complete failure in life", (and who knows, maybe I am!), but I keep tryi

> a complete failure in life Best of luck and hang on! So many times I've felt like "a complete failure in life", (and who knows, maybe I am!), but I keep trying! I've lost a few friends to suicide and can tell you they all had so much potential, and they all put too much emphasis on their failures and didn't have a realistic idea of how much they made the world a better place—even when they were "failing"—because they were trying something new and making mistakes and exploring some of the design space of our universe. If you are feeling so down, I bet you have taken chances in life that didn't pan out, and I thank you, because we need people like you to push the world in new directions. Don't feel bad about any shortcomings you've had. Experience is what you get when you don't get what you want. Sometimes you just need to hang on, let your body and mind catch it's breadth, and you will come back better than ever. > words of wisdom After 37 years, I don't think anyone knows anything about anything. Figuring out what you want is a process and takes time (https://breckyunits.com/what-i-want.html https://breckyunits.com/what-i-want.html). I'm a big believer in wearables. Things like FitBits and Levels CGM. So much of our mental moods are tied to what is going on in our bodies. The best psychiatrists in the world will be replaced by $200 of wearables within 20 years. My life didn't start until I was 34. The only regrets I have in life were the times I wasn't kind. (Note: by kind I don't mean nice—I've found being part asshole/competitive on the field to be important to do good work). > "normal" I've never found trying to be normal to be a stable place for me. You might find that what is important to you is not important to 99.9% of people. So you may need to meet a lot of people before you build up a big enough tribe. Finding constructive subreddits for my interests was helpful for me. The world needs you! You sound like the type whose big wins will be in the long term!