I mean there's plenty of books that take you through a course that you can learn yourself The most famous one for calc is calculus by spivak but it is proof ba

I mean there's plenty of books that take you through a course that you can learn yourself The most famous one for calc is calculus by spivak but it is proof based so some find it hard because they've not done proofs before. But you'll probably understand calculus better then most from that. Because of the proof requirement people recommend a book like how to prove it before starting it. But you don't need to know much maths than that to get started. I originally learned calculus ahead of time by reading through a First course in calculus by Serge lang. Simply because it's what I had available. Your not going to find a complete tour of advanced maths in general though. You have to do it subject by subject. It's much too big for that.