Throwaway for obvious reasons. I'm someone who considered suicide many times and once attempted it. I've been that way since I was 6 and it never left me up ti

Throwaway for obvious reasons. I'm someone who considered suicide many times and once attempted it. I've been that way since I was 6 and it never left me up till now (adulthood). It's still the likeliest way for me to go. I don't know if it's going to be in a year, 10 years or 20, but it is how it's going to be, unless I'm going to be hit by a car or something like that. I appreciate author's intention to pay more attention to the health of others. However, wondering if something they said in a technical conversation caused the decision is pushing it a bit too far. fastasucan already touched on that, perhaps more eloquently than I can. I'll only add to that, that I'm fairly certain that I am this way due to genetic factors. This condition was present in my family before my birth and it's common for my immediate relatives to have various disorders of the nervous system. My own condition goes beyond just suicidal thoughts - during more intense episodes my body stops working (physically), just as you'd expect, given family background. I can tell you no technical conversation ever could push me to suicide, even though I care about technology a great deal. Minor issue that I usually see in how people talk about suicide: I don't like it when someone talks about suicide as something that must be prevented at all times, presupposing that it is never a valid decision. It is patronizing. Sometimes it's a decision made under the influence of bad mental health, sometimes it's a rational decision. Sometimes it's done when life doesn't present itself as desirable. I don't share the axiom that life is invaluable. I don't like it when others try to impose it on me, just like just about anyone doesn't like proselytizing. I continue living, because everyday I choose to do so, not because I don't choose to commit suicide. In my life, living is not the default that happens in the absence of choice. It is a choice. And the other choice is valid as well. Right now I have shit to do, so I make the former choice. Someday I won't have that anymore and I will make the latter choice. I'm saying it at a time when I haven't had episodes for 2 years, my body is healthy and my mind is as sharp as it's ever been.