When I started programming professionally I relatively quickly became something worse than a hedgehog. I was so excited about opinionated thought leaders, there

When I started programming professionally I relatively quickly became something worse than a hedgehog. I was so excited about opinionated thought leaders, there was so much to learn and there were all these experts leading the way. But I was basically an overconfident parrot who didn't know what he was talking about. Then I got experience and deeper insight so I became a hedgehog, because that seemed the thing to aspire to. However not for long, because I started to suffer from the lack of nuance that hedgehogs sometimes have. Now I'm a confused wannabe fox. I want to be a fox, or rather I cannot be a hedgehog or parrot, but I'm in a continuous state of confusion and doubt and have an impatient urge to know more about everything. When it is required of me I can be pragmatic and clear, but those are snapshots given the circumstance. One could also say I'm a curious and critical thinker. But that would be an euphemism. I wish I could be a hedgehog and act on it, while having a peace of mind.