I've had a similar experience. After around 10 years on this rat race I've found out how little I had lived, despite that I was enjoying it. I couldn't even wat

I've had a similar experience. After around 10 years on this rat race I've found out how little I had lived, despite that I was enjoying it. I couldn't even watch a movie without sleeping and it took me years to finally be able to appreciate different things in life. What opened my eyes was to see my mother pass away. Only that gave me conscience that just like she did(she was young & healthy), I could get sick and die very quickly. Yes, get some hobbies and start to develop yourself in other areas. Life eventually ends and it is great to have a brain that can do something other than coding. Develop yourself psychologically, become more mature, spiritually, learn how to cook... there is just so much you can do with your time. One of your first goals should be to learn how to make your company respect you, despite you not living for them, like you are doing. Also to find a psychologist. This kind of tunnel vision is common, mine was rooted in my poverty background... and they can help you to understand what caused you to think and act like this and the most important, to learn to expand yourself in different ways. You might have actually much more potential than you think you have, but you need to let yourself go. Wish you a great time, our life is brief.