I had a similar experience with my mother. I quit my job to spend the last few months remaining with her until the day she passed. During this period we never

I had a similar experience with my mother. I quit my job to spend the last few months remaining with her until the day she passed. During this period we never told ourselves that we loved each other, not because it never came about, or was too awkward, but because our actions were expressions of love. It's probably the instance that makes more sense with the cliché: actions speak louder than words. That's how I justified it in my mind and came to terms with it for not saying it, and makes sense to me. I knew, and my mom knew, death was around the corner. But we also knew we loved each other. Could it be that saying I love you so much meant "goodbye", so we avoided saying it? I don't think so, we enjoyed our company and expressed our love for each other throughout our lives, and that happened until the final moment. It still happens to this day that my mom is no longer here, and will carry on until my mind fades away or on my death bed. Maybe our believes helped us as well, since we both had a sense of continuity of life and death. I miss her a lot. Since then I feel more empathy, and I have a new appreciation for the time I spend with my family and friends. On the other side, things like work became a shore and I've been struggling with it... like if I'm not doing meaningful things then they're pointless and a waste of time.