It sounds like there's hope for you, especially since you are now aware of what you wish to mindfully pursue. I'd suggest that you not beat yourself up over th

It sounds like there's hope for you, especially since you are now aware of what you wish to mindfully pursue. I'd suggest that you not beat yourself up over the past, and always, always keep in mind the Creative Gap: https://www.brainpickings.org/2012/02/22/ira-glass-on-the-secret-of-success/ https://www.brainpickings.org/2012/02/22/ira-glass-on-the-se...