I gotta be honest, I don’t really feel like I have a purpose. I just kinda exist and try to be happy by surrounding myself with activities and people I enjoy sp

I gotta be honest, I don’t really feel like I have a purpose. I just kinda exist and try to be happy by surrounding myself with activities and people I enjoy spending time with. Im not saying its all roses all the time, I get depressed (badly so sometimes) but I get through it and return to a happy stable existence. I have a brother, I think we both disappoint our parents a great deal because we are both kidless (by choice in my case, I do not speak for my brother). They would love grand kids and I think they would be wonderful grandparents. I dont have a partner but I would love to find someone with the same easy-living philosophy. I like working on interesting things, I like playing golf, and I like traveling. Its honestly hard to find someone like that and that causes me the most sadness sometimes... so maybe my life goal is to find my other? My biggest fear in life is not having enough health or money to maintain my baseline standard of living (admittedly I am more frugal than this post hints at). I actually do not give a damn if I die tomorrow but I would be immensely unhappy with a life altering injury or loss of wealth. I dunno if I would say I grew up on Boardwalk, but whats the green ones just before Boardwalk? That always felt more fitting.