I'm not sure if it counts as "contemplation," but I spend a lot of ideas pre-packaging responses to the various beliefs I have that are unintuitive and therefor

I'm not sure if it counts as "contemplation," but I spend a lot of ideas pre-packaging responses to the various beliefs I have that are unintuitive and therefor will make me look dumb (or evil) if expressed poorly. I used to think about the future and dreams and stuff... nowadays, I don't think I'll ever really find a place I fit. So I live in the mountains, and nature is very good up here.