It could be helpful to list things that you do, unprejudicially, and see if all of them are like this. You might find that actually, in some things, you don't

It could be helpful to list things that you do, unprejudicially, and see if all of them are like this. You might find that actually, in some things, you don't mind "just playing". But those things are, probably, unlike anything else many others call "play". I suspect that you do play for its own sake, its just in areas you havent considered in that light.