There's no such thing as a "permanent memory," each time you relive it it's liable to get warped by your thoughts at the moment. Decades of thinking "I must hav

There's no such thing as a "permanent memory," each time you relive it it's liable to get warped by your thoughts at the moment. Decades of thinking "I must have done something to deserve this" are likely to make the memory of his role in events worse.