I'm 32. Control over my feelings has always been important to me as a way to survive an abusive household when growing up. I've noticed it has become easier fo

I'm 32. Control over my feelings has always been important to me as a way to survive an abusive household when growing up. I've noticed it has become easier for the following reasons: * I've been through worse. * Time flies faster when you're older. * Having experience means I have an explanation for most of the things I experience around me. * I can assign words and concepts to what I feel, making it easier to understand what I experience inside of me. * I've seen people die. I accept death as a possible outcome and rationalize it for what it is: part of life. Like a dreamless sleep, like before I was born, which wasn't so bad.