It takes a long time to get over the kind of Stockholm Syndrome an employer like this creates. The OP is at the first stage: disengaging and trying to get persp

It takes a long time to get over the kind of Stockholm Syndrome an employer like this creates. The OP is at the first stage: disengaging and trying to get perspective. At some point hopefully they will see that they were being psychologically manipulated to meet a corporate goal without any concern for their individuality. That to me is the definition of a bad employer: they want units not humans.