Ever since I read the blog The Last Psychiatrist back-to-front, I've been suspicious of any article that contains the phrase "like a movie". The author of this

Ever since I read the blog The Last Psychiatrist back-to-front, I've been suspicious of any article that contains the phrase "like a movie". The author of this article is suffering from a severely miscalibrated valuation of her past; she values other people's observation of her failure over the failure itself. The shame she feels (as the author of TLP says- no guilt, always shame) comes from being observed by others as a failure, rather than the existence of the failure in reality. If she could snap her fingers and erase all traces of the startup from everyone else's memories but retain it herself, she would not be "hiding from her shame", and it is likely that her negative feelings would go away. (The fact that this is true is the root of her problem.) Appearance, not reality- when she tells us what she went through, her descriptions involve important names and visual descriptions; "Madison avenue", "glass doors", "like a movie". It's not her fault; most people think like this. I certainly did, and still sometimes do. In the first paragraph, she tells us how her pain manifests; it's whether or not she's "interesting enough to talk to at parties", i.e. whether or not other people are impressed by the appearance of her actions, in the present. This makes no sense. If you have an interesting story, how could it become less interesting when other people observe it? If I used to play Major League Baseball (I didn't), would my pride in myself be related to how many people in the present knew I used to play? Of course not- I don't need them to know, because I already do. (An aside- she didn't experience 'not being interesting enough to talk to', she experienced 'being ignored by a shallow assistant producer who was assessing her for value that could potentially be extracted for personal reasons'.) If your stories are not interesting to the people around you, you are with the wrong people. To avoid situations like the author lived in for six years, you must accept reality and feel guilt over your own actions rather than shame from your actions being observed. There is nothing shameful about a business venture failing from lack of preparation. It's a hell of a lot more than 99% of the population has done. Who among us has pitched a company to a venture capitalist? You should be able to be a boring person at a party that no one is talking to and enjoy your own memories of swinging for the fences and failing- your past actions, successes, and failures don't change depending on how much people know about them. It doesn't matter if other people know what happened to you in the past, because you know, and that's what has to drive your emotional state. If you did something bad, feel guilty and don't do it again. If you did something good, feel proud and do it again. If you can learn to worry more about what happened than what people saw, mental peace will find you. "If you want to be seen as someone who sits up straight, don't sit up when other people are looking. Sit up all the time." A taster: https://thelastpsychiatrist.com/2010/10/power.html https://thelastpsychiatrist.com/2010/10/power.html