So in other words, you would rather take the blue pill? Sounds like removing the distractions gave you time to think and allowed you to see things more clearly

So in other words, you would rather take the blue pill? Sounds like removing the distractions gave you time to think and allowed you to see things more clearly. That sounds great! Now you can face the things that came up head on rather than distract yourself from them. Why would you want to 'sleepwalk' through life instead via constant distractions? Maybe there is more to life, and getting rid of distractions is the first step to realizing it.