You are a failure only in your mind. For the homeless you are success. For the old grandma you are a "catch" and a good candidate for her daughter. the thing

You are a failure only in your mind. For the homeless you are success. For the old grandma you are a "catch" and a good candidate for her daughter. the thing is. Your dreams weren't yours. You just copied some formula. Imagine you are a "The sims" people that stubbornly tries to do X while your "real" persona is saying: "Dooon't go there... do this... Damned. I will break this then until you change course." My Advice: Don't think about yourself. Be Useful. Go to your local church and help just be there. We need people to help, to do "small" tasks and help community. We need you. There are literally people outside that NEED you. NEED your experience and Wisdom or just to talk. Be among people, help people.