> he basically thinks of "inhibition" and "rational thought" as valuable (and/or higher value than other qualities, probably given his usual day to day work and

> he basically thinks of "inhibition" and "rational thought" as valuable (and/or higher value than other qualities, probably given his usual day to day work and education) - but his actual "work" - the thing by which he is remembered and valued - seems to be an attempt to break from those "qualities". I think you've just sketched Pessoa's theory of creativity.