I'm struggling with this. Manager managing more and more people. Old school on premmy turned AWS and Kubernetes while I was already manager a few years ago, ma

I'm struggling with this. Manager managing more and more people. Old school on premmy turned AWS and Kubernetes while I was already manager a few years ago, making it hard to learn first principles of k8s and Docker. Now here I sit, Sunday, staring at a terminal window to force myself to set up a ruby on rails app on Docker so I can shove it into a EKS setup I will set up with Terraform. Could I do this at work? Yes. Except No. In the hours of 'free time' between meetings and other work, I feel too mentally foggy to play and learn new things. Please.Help.Me. I think I just need a vacation.