Find new interests! Your framework of mind is causing you suffering! Let me be specific: you believe (yes, beliefs are the foundation) that you're supposed to e

Find new interests! Your framework of mind is causing you suffering! Let me be specific: you believe (yes, beliefs are the foundation) that you're supposed to enjoy your job. Well, sure, you can enjoy it, maybe some aspects are enjoyable, sure. But your belief remains that you're supposed to pick one thing! You are trying to force yourself to enjoy a single thing that happens to be something you've been doing since youth, and now do as a career, and are now telling yourself it must remain fun! Do you see how this might cause you suffering when your beliefs are not met? I also have been working with computadors since my youth, and also don't find it as fun anymore. Sometimes I get into a flow and find myself enjoying it, but I really can't sustain that for more than 2-3 hours straight. I recently was able to leverage my very consistent and hard work at a new company and convince them to keep me on as a contractor (I stopped working full time). I have saved enough to give me enough runway (~1 year) to heal myself (literally, repetitive stress injury in right wrist that I forced myself to ignore for many years). In the last note of my random internet post to a stranger: this is my fourth year gardening. I have found that plants, nature, the insane level of complexity that exists in 1 cm^3 of soil blows my fascination of computers out of the water. Computing really isn't the most interesting thing in the world. Find something that puts computers to shame.