Your post suggests high conscientiousness, logical thinking and self-inquiry. These are worth more than almost anything. Formal environments are not always gre

Your post suggests high conscientiousness, logical thinking and self-inquiry. These are worth more than almost anything. Formal environments are not always great at bringing out the best in people. It's perfectly normal not to have a fixed direction and to harbour self-doubt, particularly at your age. Cross-disciplinary thinking and affinities are a sign of intelligence, not the opposite. If, after substantial consideration, the environment isn't doing it for you, then consider changing the environment - relentlessly if necessary - until it does.