I think what many really want is joy -- happiness in things that last, and expectation that one's direction is worthwhile for reasons that are both real and goo

I think what many really want is joy -- happiness in things that last, and expectation that one's direction is worthwhile for reasons that are both real and good. (Some unselfishness is usually involved.) I hope you find it, and I think you will, sooner or later. (Again, happy to discuss any time.)