I took (prescription) stimulants for about ~3 years. Outwardly, I was more "productive" during those years than at any other point in my life. Inwardly, I becam

I took (prescription) stimulants for about ~3 years. Outwardly, I was more "productive" during those years than at any other point in my life. Inwardly, I became a shell of myself. I was miserable. I was completely addicted and had no sense of control. The combination of impulsive decisions and near infinite synthetic endurance simply thrust me into situations where I little choice but to continue taking the medications or risk completely falling behind. I lost those years of my life. I still feel a profound sense of sadness about the time that I threw away. I'm free now. I quit last year. It took almost a year from my first attempt to quit until I finally stopped. I picked up a nasty cigarette habit as a crutch. My anxiety levels were through the roof trying to wean off of the meds and maintain a position at a very small startup. But when I finally managed to quit I felt a genuine sense of happiness I hadn't felt in a long time. I was finally free. This is anecdotal, of course. It's just a datapoint. But I feel a sense of responsibility to share my experience. I would not wish it on anyone. Please do significant research before starting to take stimulants. ADHD meds are not a joke. They will rewire your brain in ways you can't understand unless you've taken them before. If you do choose to begin taking stimulants, find a good therapist and make a plan to see them very regularly (at least once a month). Be honest with them (and with yourself) about the effects of the medication. Listen to your brain and your body, and reach out for help if you need it. Be well.