I have no idea how he coped knowing that he was bound to get caught. Whenever I told any white lies as a kid I felt SO exposed, nervous and vulnerable. I wonder

I have no idea how he coped knowing that he was bound to get caught. Whenever I told any white lies as a kid I felt SO exposed, nervous and vulnerable. I wonder how on earth he could live his life for nearly a couple of decades knowing the was bound to get caught. Was he torn apart by anxiety, or was he just a “LOL YOLO” type of guy?