I began my Russian journey 10 years ago and I feel extremely ashamed about how little I know. I can barely hold a conversation. My ADHD/anxiety makes reading ne

I began my Russian journey 10 years ago and I feel extremely ashamed about how little I know. I can barely hold a conversation. My ADHD/anxiety makes reading near impossible and it seems the resources for Russian language are generally old-fashioned or inconvenient (eg RU isn't often supported by these new clever/trendy learning tools that pop up). My goal now is just to get to a Russian speaking country and learn naturally. I have decent pattern recognition so this is the easiest way for me to learn, so it's a pity that there seems to be so few resources that take advantage of this. Chatting with strangers in my target language has been the most beneficial for me so far.