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I just figured people would know me by my work, and I make a point of "signing" it, just... it doesn't go out very far. And yeah, I'm feeling kinda low on self-

I just figured people would know me by my work, and I make a point of "signing" it, just... it doesn't go out very far. And yeah, I'm feeling kinda low on self-worth. The thing about giving oneself credit is, is it useful if the credit you give yourself doesn't match the credit others give you? (Regardless of who is right objectively). Doesn't that just increase the amount of cognitive dissonance in the world? The people I mentioned are currently mildly worried about my mental well being. I'm not. I just don't see the point in continuing to do stuff like this; maybe I'd be happier being a fisherman or a cobbler, is all.

ksaj 6y ago
> maybe I'd be happier being a fisherman or a cobbler To be fair, they do things that benefit others, too. Lil Nas X and Captain Highliner are already getting all the credit for shoes and fish, though. Try not to paint everyone with the same brush stroke. Your use of the word "others" ignores the fact that the people you impact are the ones that count, and yet you're allowing yourself to get hung up on not getting patted on the head by people outside that loop. Are you doing these things for the other person, or for you? Also: If people you know personally are questioning your mental condition, it's usually a good time to get a second opinion. Talk to your GP. There can be changes that occur over time that you may not notice, out of daily familiarity, but are stark to people who don't see you daily. You've mentioned it enough that it seems you are also concerned, even while passing it off.
- spiritplumber 6y ago
  I think everyone likes headpats, ask the nearest dog/cat/bunny for verification :) I'm doing things for the thing that needs done, mostly. But yeah the glory is more important to me than the money. It used to feel good, now it doesn't. Guess assuefaction happens with everything and the dopamine pump dries up with everything. I've talked to a therapist a couple of weeks ago. And yeah, that's a thing about a society that has fully globalized. There's only room for one set of glory hounds. Kids who want to get into building stuff are inspired by Colin Furze, not by the guy down the street who makes wheelchair ramps out of pallets.
  - ksaj 6y ago
    > Kids who want to get into building stuff are inspired by Colin Furze, not by the guy down the street who makes wheelchair ramps out of pallets. That's pretty dystopian. Kids have to be exposed to causes before they can possibly develop compassion for them. That puts it square in the parent's department. I guess if you need to be that glory hound, you'll have to do it the old fashioned way: by earning it through your works. Whining extensively about it won't get you very much glory. Completely the opposite, likely.
    - spiritplumber 6y ago
      That's the thing. I'm 40. I've done work in a number of fields, and I was hoping that it'd be speaking for itself by now, but I don't see a whole lot of evidence that it has done that. And yes, it is dystopian. It's also what I observe. As for me being a glory hound, I'm fully aware that it's not a virtue, but I'm motivated more by notoriety than by, say, riches or patriotism. Whining extensively seems to work pretty well for a narrow category of people, although they tend to do it on Twitter, not HN, admittedly.

ksaj 6y ago

> maybe I'd be happier being a fisherman or a cobbler To be fair, they do things that benefit others, too. Lil Nas X and Captain Highliner are already getting all the credit for shoes and fish, though. Try not to paint everyone with the same brush stroke. Your use of the word "others" ignores the fact that the people you impact are the ones that count, and yet you're allowing yourself to get hung up on not getting patted on the head by people outside that loop. Are you doing these things for the other person, or for you? Also: If people you know personally are questioning your mental condition, it's usually a good time to get a second opinion. Talk to your GP. There can be changes that occur over time that you may not notice, out of daily familiarity, but are stark to people who don't see you daily. You've mentioned it enough that it seems you are also concerned, even while passing it off.

spiritplumber 6y ago
I think everyone likes headpats, ask the nearest dog/cat/bunny for verification :) I'm doing things for the thing that needs done, mostly. But yeah the glory is more important to me than the money. It used to feel good, now it doesn't. Guess assuefaction happens with everything and the dopamine pump dries up with everything. I've talked to a therapist a couple of weeks ago. And yeah, that's a thing about a society that has fully globalized. There's only room for one set of glory hounds. Kids who want to get into building stuff are inspired by Colin Furze, not by the guy down the street who makes wheelchair ramps out of pallets.
- ksaj 6y ago
  > Kids who want to get into building stuff are inspired by Colin Furze, not by the guy down the street who makes wheelchair ramps out of pallets. That's pretty dystopian. Kids have to be exposed to causes before they can possibly develop compassion for them. That puts it square in the parent's department. I guess if you need to be that glory hound, you'll have to do it the old fashioned way: by earning it through your works. Whining extensively about it won't get you very much glory. Completely the opposite, likely.
  - spiritplumber 6y ago
    That's the thing. I'm 40. I've done work in a number of fields, and I was hoping that it'd be speaking for itself by now, but I don't see a whole lot of evidence that it has done that. And yes, it is dystopian. It's also what I observe. As for me being a glory hound, I'm fully aware that it's not a virtue, but I'm motivated more by notoriety than by, say, riches or patriotism. Whining extensively seems to work pretty well for a narrow category of people, although they tend to do it on Twitter, not HN, admittedly.