It sounds to me like you are too single focused. Get some hobbies and by hobbies I mean the outdoor kind. Take up fishing or para-sailing or rebuild a classic c

It sounds to me like you are too single focused. Get some hobbies and by hobbies I mean the outdoor kind. Take up fishing or para-sailing or rebuild a classic car or something. Get away from the feedback loop. Some kids your age decide to party to get out of it, others take up a hobby. I personally think that a hobby is more constructive but the point is you need to make the world that matters bigger than a single focus, in doing so you have more to divert your mind from constant focus on a single issue.