It does not necessarily mean you are a bad software developer. Each project has different setup and is done in different way. It just takes some time to learn i

It does not necessarily mean you are a bad software developer. Each project has different setup and is done in different way. It just takes some time to learn it and work with it. Don't be discouraged. If you made your way so far with a backup way, you are perfectly fine to learn some ways that bigger teams use. Actually you being able to solve stuff on your own, being self dependant and being able to find hacky but working solutions is your adventage you can use to help teams move forward.