Most of the "senior" engineers I know don't care about the craft and are pretty mediocre developers. You faked it until you made it. You care about becoming be

Most of the "senior" engineers I know don't care about the craft and are pretty mediocre developers. You faked it until you made it. You care about becoming better. Just work harder on your skills and get better. Learn about best practices, learn from your mistakes, learn from code reviews from better developers, look into OSS, contribute to OSS and get feedback by better engineers. There is no reason to sabotage your career over this.