First off it sucks that you feel this way, but its a good thing you are aware of your short-comings and what you feel you want to improve on. You can definitel

First off it sucks that you feel this way, but its a good thing you are aware of your short-comings and what you feel you want to improve on. You can definitely be a PM, most I know have no coding experience. Its an entirely different skillset. Maybe not a PM but a PO or management role if that suits you more. If it helps, my current manager realised after a few years of coding that he'd never be a great programmer (whatever that means to you) and went into management. Turns out helping other people be great programmers is a lot more satisfying to him and the background in programming is a huge asset for him. If you are a PM and you have more than just a superficial knowledge of programming, that is a huge asset. As far as coding, I have nowhere near your years of experience, but focusing mostly on quality, clean code and really learning how to do stuff like write meaningful tests really helped me. Read Clean Code and A Philosophy of Software Design. Go find some people at your company who clearly have no issue with these things and pick their brains. I don't think you're lost, just not sure about what you want to do with the rest of your years. Take a break and figure that out. You're clearly willing to learn so if its better coding, go learn, if not go do something else.