I think I've got a good handle on it now. Basically I don't get as angry anymore, and I don't get as depressed anymore, and I don't work as hard anymore. Using

I think I've got a good handle on it now. Basically I don't get as angry anymore, and I don't get as depressed anymore, and I don't work as hard anymore. Using terms like "rage" is off-putting to alot of people, but the reality is that I set all my personal records in exercise when I was super pissed off about something that happened in my life. The softer approach now is that I understand that the "I am not good enough" mindset is a powerful one that is behind many successful people's motivation. It's kinda a paradox, because you basically think "I am the best", but also "I am not good enough"... Putting it together into something cohesive is more like "I am capable of being better than I currently am". The emotional stuff is kinda like "I will suffer more if I don't do this". Like self imposed suffering caused by dissapointment.