I would wager that 95% or more of people actively developing software for a living couldn't make it through Leetcode - meanwhile they're providing value to thei

I would wager that 95% or more of people actively developing software for a living couldn't make it through Leetcode - meanwhile they're providing value to their employers and putting food on the table for their families. Speaking of families - what's your plan? You say you have an undergraduate CS degree. Even a middling programmer is going to make a lot more than most other professions. What else are you going to do to keep a roof over your head and put food on the table? Most of all do you enjoy programming? I've known programmers who are very mediocre but love their job. No, they don't make as much as the "superstars" but they're able to raise families, have a life, and enjoy their work. Don't take this the wrong way but maybe you'd benefit from therapy? A therapist can really help you with perspective. You're definitely not suffering from an overinflated ego, but an underinflated ego is also a problem. At the very least see a career coach to better understand what other options you have and what else you can do to provide for yourself and feel good about yourself. Take care and good luck. I sincerely hope you get through this and come through to a better place. When you do will you remember us here on HN and tell us how it turned out?