Like many responders here, I have been through something similar, but not nearly so tough as what you are going through. I hope you can come through stronger a

Like many responders here, I have been through something similar, but not nearly so tough as what you are going through. I hope you can come through stronger and that this thread helps. One thing you didn't mention is how much time you have to devote to healing yourself. In my case, the only time I had for myself was after everyone else went to bed. If you are still monitoring, give us an idea of how much time you have per day/week to spend on your needs. The most dangerous part of your situation is the depression. It will drain the life out of you. I wasn't effective on my work project until I dealt with it. There are many good ideas here on how to climb back out; here are a few more. * Get some professional help I know finances are tight but a very close friend of mine saw a psychiatrist and it helped immensely. Make sure they are goal oriented in that they are working towards putting themselves out of a job, not setting up a continual revenue stream. * Apply your skills towards non-profit activities Work makes me feel better about myself and helping others is a wonderful feeling. Sites like: http://catchafire.org/ http://catchafire.org/ can help you find opportunities. * Mentor at a local school You have failed and probably think about it a lot; I know I do. (This is probably not the healthiest of activities...) But this means that you can also help others avoid the problems that you have faced. On a different note, I think the many responses here have shown just how prevalent this kind of situation is and how wonderful it is to have a support structure. I feel better just seeing the support for you! You might want to consider recording your journey, either for posterity or, if you feel comfortable publishing, to help others in similar situations.