I'm a failed startup entrepreneur fighting my way back out of depression, spiritless-ness, and massive debt. My entire family suffers from social anxiety disor

I'm a failed startup entrepreneur fighting my way back out of depression, spiritless-ness, and massive debt. My entire family suffers from social anxiety disorder There is no ecosystem to help drive and create new things. Local city and business "leaders" I talk to about doing something politely nod their head in agreement but it never leads to anything. You know, you are probably very much like us, a functional manic depressive. We are dreamers - bugs who want to change the world. And it drives us crazy. When we work for someone we disparage it and call it a J.O.B.. Yet, getting paid is the key marker of value being created. Another word about manic depressives, that is how we get into debt because we are too optimistic when we are manic. I had a failed startup once, and you know what? Working for people isn't at all bad. I don't watch TV, and I spend a lot of time tinkering around with ideas. Hopefully one of them works, but if it doesn't, my family will still be fed and clothed. I'm not going to offer any concrete actions, but to reassure you that you are doing the right thing in putting your parents ahead of yourself. Just as the blind can't drive, the cripple can't walk, if you are crippled by massive debt, you can't take business risks. Instead, I'd like you to reframe what your definition of success is. Success is not a million dollar house, or a changed world. Success is when you have become a role model and become a source of inspiration. Tackle your problems with dignity and that is success in its own. One thing I might suggest is meditation. It is free, and you will hopefully learn to better pierce through your current anxiety, and see that it is a your parent's social anxiety manifested in another form.