For the love of god, don't take mental health advice from strangers on the internet. Talk to a professional. Don't be afraid of medication. There is science (do

For the love of god, don't take mental health advice from strangers on the internet. Talk to a professional. Don't be afraid of medication. There is science (double blind studies) backing up anti-depressants as an effective way to reduce depression. It probably seems hopeless but a doctor will help you.