You might be in a better position than most of us. You are poised to start all over again. You may have no idea how empowering that is. I see only one problem

You might be in a better position than most of us. You are poised to start all over again. You may have no idea how empowering that is. I see only one problem in your situation actually, but maybe it's just me oversimplifying everything. You need to believe in yourself once again. Snap out of it, wake up. You're still alive, and that should count for something. Maybe you can make use of the app I made to create resumes, if you still don't have one: http://www.cvstash.com http://www.cvstash.com. Other than that, all I can say is that maybe you need to dive into an altogether different industry, one you haven't explored before. There are always problems to solve.