I'm like 'yes, and?'. Me, I just dropped out. Before that, I perfected ways of sneaking away from classes and wandering the halls, like I was behind enemy lines

I'm like 'yes, and?'. Me, I just dropped out. Before that, I perfected ways of sneaking away from classes and wandering the halls, like I was behind enemy lines and would be killed if I was spotted: dropping out was arguably more sensible than carrying on like that. Nobody knew about being autistic back then (I'm 53). I spent some time homeless, lived on the edge of existence for a lot of years. These days they try to make somewhat more accommodations for people like me, but there's only so far that goes and I doubt you can count on it. I ended up being the person I wanted to be. That's gotta count for something. You might have to be patient (with yourself AND with others: I don't see much of the latter in you). It took a hell of a long time and was a lot of work, which often didn't feel worth it. The one thing I can feel very confident in saying is: it gets better. Some people molder away, forever wishing they were back in their glory days in school or whatever. You're not them (nor am I). I figure folks like us take forever to get stuff sorted out, and then after everything is awesome you die. Soooo… switch to the 'stuff sorted out' part as soon as possible, and once you're there, try not to forget you're there :)