I live in New Zealand - I can't afford land. The only possibility for getting around the seasonalilty is growing indoors - and I really don't have the space fo

I live in New Zealand - I can't afford land. The only possibility for getting around the seasonalilty is growing indoors - and I really don't have the space for that. Depression for me has caused me to spiral down - so far down that there's no apparent path back up. I've been down and out for so long that even finding work is damned near impossible - so I can never even get to the point where renting my own place is feasible.